and then there was you

I have waited my whole life to experience this love.

I longed to feel this with every fiber of my being.

So many years passed and I felt like It was never going to happen. That I was destined to go through this life alone.

Then I met Austin and he opened my heart to another love I never knew. I love that pierced my soul, in the best way.

And then there was you, Shelby Jean

It’s hard to even put into words what I feel towards you. But I will try.

You are the joy that radiates through me. One look at you and my day is instantly brighter. I have smiled so much since the day you were born that my cheeks are constantly sore. I honestly don’t think I have smiled this much in my entire life.

There are times where you cry and I do everything I can to sooth you and nothing seems to work. So I put you in your crib and let you cry for a minute while I take a few deep breaths in the other room. To regain my sanity. But with each breath I miss you so much it pains me.

When I am not near you I can feel my heart reaching out for you. Searching for your presence until you are back in my arms.

Getting to watch you grow has been the greatest gift I have ever received in this life and I cannot imagine a life without you in it.

Grateful doesn’t even begin to describe what I feel like to be your mom.

Shelby Jean you are so fiercely loved.