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9 months we had slept separately together.

Me wrapped up in the pregnancy pillow tossing and turning, and Austin asleep soundly on his back never moving a muscle all throughout the night.

I have never been much of a cuddler. I like to cuddle for a minute and then get into a position comfortable for sleep and that won’t wreak havoc on my body the next day.

But I over the course of the last nine months I didn’t realize how much I missed that minute of cuddling until the other night/early morning.

Every since I had Shelby I’ve been sleeping on my back due to the one time I slept on my side I sprung a massive leak in my right boob and woke up completely drenched in milk. I have now learned the benefits of breast pads.

The other night/morning (time is irrelevant) I got done nursing Shelby and finally got situated to go back to sleep. I cocooned myself in the blankets and started to shiver. We have been keeping the apartment cooler for baby girl and I am still adjusting.

During this time Austin had woken up and once he felt me shivering he scootched right up against me (big spoon style) and wrapped his arm around me.

I felt the love radiate through my body. His arm wrapped around my stomach made me reminisce over the last nine months where my belly was a home for our sweet girl. And now there we laid, his arms around me as we sleep next to our daughter. It’s hard to describe the feelings of love I have for Austin. I never thought I’d get to experience this kind of love and here I am with such an amazing person to share my life with. Watching him thrive in his new role of fatherhood is the greatest gift.