no one talks about this part- back to work

No one talks about when your partner returns to work.

Yesterday just the thought of Austin going back to work was enough to get me teary-eyed.

And this morning when he left for work it felt like my heart was being stomped on.

I mustered up all the strength I had to not completely lose it when he left for the day.

I knew it would make it harder for him. So I kissed him goodbye with tear filled eyes and with all my power didn’t let one single teardrop fall.

He walked down the stairs and when I heard him get to the door at the bottom, I took baby Shelby and stood at the top of the stairs and waved her little hand at him goodbye.

A few tears escaped my eyes and we exchanged one last I love you and off to work he went.

It took me a good hour to “compose” myself.

It wasn’t fear of being home alone with Shelby that made me upset.

It was that being home with him and her the past week was the best week of my life. Watching our love for this tiny human grow with each day was such a gift and I selfishly didn’t want to end.

Today was hard seeing him go to work but I am so thankful for him and I am so thankful to have the opportunity to stay home with our sweet little girl.

Even though today hurt my heart a little bit I know that we are truly blessed and I am

So grateful for my little family.